Writing Playlists: Oath to Order or Order to Chaos

Hi guys! 

Writing Playlists are always a topic of conversation amongst writers. Should you have one? Should you listen to anything while working on your WIP? How do you know what will compliment your genre? 

I can’t answer those questions. If you’re a writer the only person who can is you. Only you will know your preference and everybody likes different things. 

Ever since I started writing thirteen years ago I’ve never been able to write without music playing. I’d listen to whatever was played on the radio whether it be a sad song or 8O’s pop. I have always found it hard to write in silence. This has its downsides because I find myself getting distracted by lyrics or the rhythm of the song. Luckily it only happens on the odd occasion. 

It’s only recently that I’ve put a writing playlist together. I’ll share it with you. 

Within Temptation- And We Run

Moby –                           After

Within Temptation-   Mother Earth

Enya –                               Wild Child 

Evanescence-                 Hello

Within Temptation-     Shot In The Dark

Enya-                          Return to Innocence

Enya-                           The Cults

Within Temptation-   Faster

Within Temptation-    Our Farewell

We Are The Fallen-       I Am Only One 

These are just some of what I like to listen to while writing. There’s more to add at a later date which is always fun to do. 

As Pandora’s Kiss is a Dystopian Fantasy I find myself being drawn to gothic/alternative metal to write to the most. Q

I hope you enjoyed reading my playlist. 

Until next week, 


With thanks to Álvaro Serrano for the image via Unsplash.com 


Colour Therapy


Hi guys!

I’ve been seeing a Psychologist for just over a month now. In that time I’ve experienced many emotions. Some, I expected to feel. The others, not so much.

The first week I felt really angry with things. I dealt with it by listening to a lot of My Chemical Romance and walking. The second week I’d calmed and was happier. By the third session the anger had resurfaced followed by a lot of upset.

This has continued as I’ve talked about my traumatic childhood and teenage years.

Only last week did I open up about it and I was fine. The emotions didn’t show up until later.

The picture above is from the Animal Kingdom by Millie Marotta. Colouring isn’t something that always helps me. In the past couple of weeks though it has tremendously. It gives you a chance to think about something else other than what you’re feeling and thinking about.

Sometimes I like to colour with music playing in the background. Other times I prefer to colour in silence. It all depends on my mood.

Colouring books get a lot of bad press. It’s beyond me why. If it helps someone relax and take away their troubles how can that be bad? Or maybe I’m missing the point entirely.

Who knows?

I’ve had a good week with receiving feedback from readers. I’m still on a dilemma about what angle to tell the story from, but I’m hopeful that, that will be resolved shortly.

I hope you have had a great week and continue to do so in the coming one.

Until next week,


A Tribute


Hi guys!

Sixteen days until the big edit! Eek!

What a rubbish week it’s been huh?

David Bowie has returned back to the stars while everyone, at least who I know, is listening to his music and remembering what he brought to the world. The comfort that he brought teenagers who were singled out for being different from their peers and shunned from society.

The very first song I heard him sing was Let’s Dance. I think I must have been eight or nine years old. It was playing on the radio in a cafe and even though it wasn’t on the TV I could visualise all of the colours emanating from the vibe.

The second song after that had been Heroes. I can’t recall how old I was but it’s a song that had been with me throughout my journey as a writer. It’s become a ritual to listen to it when I need motivation and confidence to write.

But if you were to tell me we were to lose another legendary man I’d have never believed it.

Four days after Bowie’s passing came the death of Alan Rickman. Our very own Severus Snape.

A lot of people have protested that he was so much more than a Potions professor and I agree. He had many great roles such as Hans Gruber in Die Hard, The Sheriff of Nottingham in Robin Hood: Princes of Thieves and as Jamie in Truly, Madly, Deeply just to name a few.

Although those performances were noteworthy it wasn’t until I saw him take on the role of Snape that his talent shone through. I don’t think anybody could have played the part as well as he did.

Since Thursday I’ve read tributes from the cast and his friends in the industry and from what I read of their accounts he was a charismatic, unique and witty human being with a heart of gold.

The whole of the Harry Potter Fandom is mourning along with David Bowie’s fans. If I wasn’t already reeling from that loss I am reeling even more now.

‘How can you cry over someone you’ve never met?’ People have asked this week. My reply was that it’s not so much that I knew David or Alan but the fact that because of David’s music and Alan’s portrayal of Snape led me to know a part of myself that I would never have known existed. That’s what makes me sad in their passing. I will always remember that because of them, I found out things I would never have known.

That’s all for this week.

Until next time,


With thanks to Greg Rakozy for the image via Unsplash.com.

I don’t know where I’m going from here,

but I know it won’t be boring.

After all this time?


Living With a Mental Illness at Christmas


Hi guys!

Just under a week to go until Christmas!

For many, it’s a joyful time of the year.  For some, like myself, it’s one of the toughest times that a few don’t survive the New Year.

Personally I’ve always struggled with being happy and cheerful at Christmas. This started to happen when I was fourteen when someone who I loved dearly emigrated and after I reported sexual abuse that saw my mum turn against me. It’s because of this that I find Christmas unbearable and wish for the New Year to start.

If you were to ask anybody what Christmas is about they’d more than likely say family. The answer is different for everybody, of course but to some family is the core meaning for celebrating Christmas.

Being without a family at Christmas is difficult for anyone but when you live with a mental illness it’s just as devastating.  Seeing adverts of happy families in the TV sitting down to Christmas dinner with people gathered around the table leaves me feeling deflated and often alone. Christmas songs can send my mood plummeting within seconds of playing along with general chatter as well.

It’s not just a lack of family that adds to the Christmas blues. Having depression and anxiety sucks every ounce of happiness from my body and soul on the days that have little significance. Being surrounded by cheer and joy has a different effect on different people. Some take solace from it where others feel smothered.

When you’re sad and miserable at such a time it can prove to be difficult. There is pressure to be happy,  to act happy and to revel in the festivities. To not do so, to some, seems pessimistic.  I’ve been told many times to suck it up and smile. This is not to say that I don’t enjoy it because I do. I don’t find it easy being happy all the month through. It’s a personal struggle for me. 

Christmas, for me is about compassion. Remembering to be kind and helpful to those around me. That gives me a sense of purpose and helps me through. As does writing and music.

Although I am saddened by the lack of family and find the days hard because of my mental illness I am so grateful for what I do have. A loving husband and two siblings who make me smile every day.

If you know anyone that is struggling because of mental illness or otherwise, please be a friend to them. There’s nothing more heartwarming to a person who is struggling than a friendly face. 

Wishing you a very Happy Christmas.

With warmth and kindest wishes,


With thanks to Luke  Pamer for the image via Unsplash.com

NaNoWriMo: Day Twenty Nine


Pages: One Hundred and Ninety Four
Word Count: 65,158

Hi guys!

The eve of the last NaNoWriMo day is dawning. How are you all doing? Are you nearly at the finish line? Perhaps you still have a way to go? Or are you well on your way to finishing your novel? 

I talked a little bit about planning for my next novel and being inspired by Enya. Obviously,  this novel won’t be a work in progress until later next year. After all, I have JanuWriMo in January where I’ll be writing a crime/thriller, then I’ll be revisiting Pandora’s Kiss in February and that should take up some time.

The story idea that I have is a bit daunting as it involves a particular time in my past that still haunts me today so I’m a bit weary about going there. It’s not something I want to do but as the saying goes if you can’t shake an idea off then it’s got to be written about. Just scares me half to death thinking about it.

Have you ever had an idea like that? A one so strong where it’s with you every single moment and you can’t shake it off?

The last time this happened it was with Pandora’s Kiss. It’s so unexpected.

Pandora’s Kiss still occupies most of my thoughts, too. Even though it’s away and I’m not supposed to think about it.  I try to push it away when it happens, though. No point revisiting it of it’s still fresh in my head.

Best of luck wherever you are in your WIP’s. 

Happy Writing!

Until tomorrow,


NaNoWriMo: Day Twenty Eight


Pages: One Hundred and Eighty
Word Count: 62, 418

Hi guys!

I tried desperately to think of a topic for today’s post but all was lost. All I could think of was incessant babble and things that I’d sworn to keep away from my blogging posts.

Have you been writing listening to music during NaNoWriMo? Do you listen to music while writing in general? Writing my novel for NaNoWriMo I’ve been listening to Spotify playlists. Everything from dance to progressive rock to country. I always try to find one that goes hand in hand with the scene that I’m writing. While writing Adria’s I used gothic metal (with her despairing about her relationship with Robert) and for Daniel’s I used a pop/dance playlist for his reunion with Rosa.

I usually listen to music while writing a first draft of a novel. Sometimes it inspires me and other times it can be a distraction and stifle my creativity. It all depends on my mood and how my brain operates at the time.

When I first started writing Pandora’s Kiss eight years ago I used to listen to the radio, which as you know, is all very random. I didn’t focus on the music|
back then; it never fuelled my imagination or changed the direction the story was going in. Although, I do remember going to bed one night, the radio still playing away and Leona Lewis’s version of Run started playing. It created a vision of one of my character’s dying from battle and it was so vivid and fitting that I decided to run with it.

I’m pleased to say that she survived in previous drafts along with many others. The current draft doesn’t feature anybody dying which is good news for them.

Music can inspire us and act as a pathway to take us back to a place in time- whether happy or sad. It’s one of the things that I love about it.

I’m currently listening to Enya a lot andI’m currently listening to Enya a lot and letting it lead the way to create another story that’s lingering away in my head.

Happy Writing!

Until tomorrow,


The Weekend From Hell

How was everybody’s weekend?

On Thursday my computer puckered out leaving me PC less. I didn’t mind so much as I only type things up once I have a rough handwritten draft in front of me and it makes things easier that way.

On Saturday, my lovely husband thought it would have been a nice surprise to by a new tower to replace the old one. Now, it’s not very often he’s spontaneous so I was generally over the moon with it at first. Then, the problems started.

Going from Windows XP to Windows 7 wasn’t a big deal for me as we already own a Windows 7 computer for the living room. It turned out though I’d completely underestimated just how complicated it could be.

Anyone who knows me will tell you that I’m incredibly crap with technology and its workings.

First, I had trouble with arranging files and photo albums. Once that was sorted the Media Player wouldn’t play anything either. After many moons of downloading and installing things it’s now up and running. All systems go once again.

I’m keeping my fingers crossed that this one lasts a long, long time because I don’t want to have the same hassle as this one has cost me.