The Future 

Hi guys! 

This week I have been reading and re- mastering my writing skill. It’s been said that a writer never stops learning, and that’s true. I love learning new things that I didn’t know before. Even if that something is what I should have known from the start. But, hey. Nobody’s perfect.  

It’s also been a week of personal challenges. 

As some of you may know I have battled with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. That battle has seen me fall, lose my sense of self and wander in the dark. But it’s also made me stronger and more determined to overcome it. 

Yesterday I hit another milestone. I walked by myself, went to a coffee shop and ordered a hot chocolate. Okay, so it doesn’t seem like that big a deal and to some it probably isn’t, but I haven’t done that in such a long time. I’ve either gone with my husband who is fabulous  dealing with my illness and he’s ordered for the two of us, or we walk together. 

I can’t explain all of those emotions what I felt, but I was almost certain that I’d back out of going. But I didn’t. 

It was a huge deal to me to be able to do that. And I hope to do it more often. 

I am about to start therapy again soon. Earlier this year I was discharged from Primary Care to Secondary where they could keep more of an eye on me while I explore the issues of my past. And with an assessment for Autism in the pipeline it’s all going on. 

My childhood was very traumatic as were my teenage years. A lot of the stuff that happened was swept under the carpet by family members that didn’t want to remember or talk about what happened to me. There are a lot of issues I have to iron out and put my suffering to bed. 

How I will cope during that process is going to be hard to tell. 

Which is why I must put this blog aside for now and concentrate on overcoming this obstacle that I call recovery.  

It pains me to do so, but I can’t give you my all if I’m not whole myself. 

In the past four years I have loved writing posts about writing and various things and I hope that my ramblings have helped you in someway. 

Soooo…. 

It’s with that I say goodbye for now. 

Hopefully I’ll be back blogging about something insignificant again one day. 

I hope you continue to meet your goals and achieve your dreams. Never stop going for what you want. 

Blaze

With thanks to  Jamie Street for the image via Unsplash.com 

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2084 – A Co Author’s Project

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Apart from Pandora’s Kiss I am also working on another novel called, as you might guess from the title and picture 2084. This will pick up from where George Orwell left off from his novel 1984.

This will be a co authoring project with a lovely guy called Dick Wilz who came to me with his vision of what 2084 would be like and I loved it so much that agreed to work on it with him.

Those of you who are familiar with 1984 will remember that Winston co operated with Big Brother but their attempt to re educate him failed. Our novel will follow up on that with three different perspectives.

I hope you will be with us on this journey to greatness.

Blaze

Riding on the Wings of the Wind: Destiny’s Story

Feathers In the Wind

            In the past week some interesting ideas have sneaked their way into my subconcious and wound their way to my conscious mind. 

One encountered me while lying curled up onto the couch watching Forrest Gump with Tom Hanks (love him in this and The Green Mile, and Turner and Hooch too haha). I’ve always loved this film and have watched it trillions of times with family.

I’m sure you’ll all know the story but just incase I’ll give you a brief overview. It is about a boy named Forrest who is found to be of below average intelligence but still manages to go to college, join the Army and recieve medals of honour and etc. Before success though, comes golden haired, quiet natured Jenny who becomes his best friend… Until she is driven to run away from her past and Forrest repeatedly.

I always feel for Jenny because I understand what she went through with her alcoholic drunk of a father (at least that’s how he came across to me:S) and the abuse she faced as a result of his frustration. But I can sympathise with Forrest too because despite her troubled and annoying behaviour, he still loves her.

There is a part of the movie where Forrest is talking to her and reveals his confusion over the meaning of life, whether we all have a destiny, or whether we are all floating around aimlessly just bumping into people as a coincidence which led the last part of my chapter of Lady of the Kryptonites.

There are two rings around my story world. The one in the middle, first, is Episkopos, where literature, music, and general education suffers and ridiculation is a plenty. The second, bigger ring is Atalevede. The future.

Once outside Episkopos you can clearly see the surroundings of Episkopos, which only happens if you are dead or ‘dormant’ (more about that later). Atalevede is taken care of by Kharites, three woman, one in teenage years, one who is middle aged and another who is elderly.

The question that came to my mind is, is Fate known from the moment you are born or is it already blowing on a breeze over the sea waiting to claim you?

I’ll let you come to your own conclusions.

Stay tuned for more insights.

Thanks again for reading,

Blaze.