The Future 

Hi guys! 

This week I have been reading and re- mastering my writing skill. It’s been said that a writer never stops learning, and that’s true. I love learning new things that I didn’t know before. Even if that something is what I should have known from the start. But, hey. Nobody’s perfect.  

It’s also been a week of personal challenges. 

As some of you may know I have battled with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. That battle has seen me fall, lose my sense of self and wander in the dark. But it’s also made me stronger and more determined to overcome it. 

Yesterday I hit another milestone. I walked by myself, went to a coffee shop and ordered a hot chocolate. Okay, so it doesn’t seem like that big a deal and to some it probably isn’t, but I haven’t done that in such a long time. I’ve either gone with my husband who is fabulous  dealing with my illness and he’s ordered for the two of us, or we walk together. 

I can’t explain all of those emotions what I felt, but I was almost certain that I’d back out of going. But I didn’t. 

It was a huge deal to me to be able to do that. And I hope to do it more often. 

I am about to start therapy again soon. Earlier this year I was discharged from Primary Care to Secondary where they could keep more of an eye on me while I explore the issues of my past. And with an assessment for Autism in the pipeline it’s all going on. 

My childhood was very traumatic as were my teenage years. A lot of the stuff that happened was swept under the carpet by family members that didn’t want to remember or talk about what happened to me. There are a lot of issues I have to iron out and put my suffering to bed. 

How I will cope during that process is going to be hard to tell. 

Which is why I must put this blog aside for now and concentrate on overcoming this obstacle that I call recovery.  

It pains me to do so, but I can’t give you my all if I’m not whole myself. 

In the past four years I have loved writing posts about writing and various things and I hope that my ramblings have helped you in someway. 

Soooo…. 

It’s with that I say goodbye for now. 

Hopefully I’ll be back blogging about something insignificant again one day. 

I hope you continue to meet your goals and achieve your dreams. Never stop going for what you want. 

Blaze

With thanks to  Jamie Street for the image via Unsplash.com 

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NaNoWriMo: Day Seventeen

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Pages: One Hundred and Twenty Five
Word Count: 41,768

Hi guys!

Time for another update. 

I started writing earlier than usual last night so that I could have an early night. I finished at two (not very early but better than half six), had a hot drink while colouring then hit the road to Bedfordshire.

Getting to sleep still wasn’t that easy.

To make things worse, just when I was about to drop off I was disturbed by a vision of a story idea. They have a habit of doing that, don’t they? So annoying. I wrote it down and tried to go back to sleep.

I had been hoping to have an early start but with the trouble I had getting to sleep I was exhausted. Not helped by the fact that I’d not had a great dream, either.

You know what it’s like when you’re trying to not think about someone and they pop in to your dreams showing you exactly what you don’t want to see? That’s what happened to me.

Not surprising to say that I feel a bit vulnerable because of that.

Still, the show must go on. Unfortunately. 

Happy Writing!

Until tomorrow,

Blaze

Self Belief: Answer To All Life’s Problems????

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Some say that the above quote is all that you need to fulfil your dreams and reach success. Without it they claim that nothing is possible, that your dreams will falter into dust and successes will turn into failures.

While others simply disagree.

These people simply argue that while belief needs to be acquired, too much can damage your chances of success and make everything crumble beneath you. And some also believe that there is such a thing as too much self belief which can lead a person to be arrogant and obtrusive about their work.

Do we need to believe in ourselves in order to fulfil our dreams? Or do we need belief from other people to encourage us to border success?

I think personally that there needs to be a balance of both. Enough belief in yourself will get you where you need to be, too much could lead to crippling your desires and losing part of yourself without realising it. Self belief is also hard to acquire. Telling yourself ‘I am going to be successful’ won’t be enough to secure your dream job and neither will faking it.

Belief doesn’t come easily. Any writer will tell you that it is a steep slope that constantly gets bigger and steeper the longer you write. It is something that you come across from other people who believe in you, but what you think of yourself matters too.

For me, I believe in all of you. So go and fulfil your dreams and dance amongst the stars!

Blaze

All I knew was that I never wanted to be average. Michael Jackson

 

 

 

What is Fantasy, but a word neglected

Fantasy – (fan-tuh-zee) noun

1. Imagination especially when extravagant and unrestrained.

2. The forming of mental images, especially wondrous or strange fancies; imaginative conceptualizing.

3. A mental image, especially when unreal or fantastic; vision: a nightmare fantasy.

4. Psychol. An imagined or conjured up sequence fulfilling a psychological need; daydream.

5. A hallucination.

6. A supposition based on no solid foundation; visionary idea; illusion: dreams of Utopias and similar fantasies.

7. Caprice; whim.

8. An ingenious or fanciful thought, design or invention.

Fantasy is often a topic that is frowned upon in real life, yet in books it is totally acceptable to portray characters with elements such as paranormal/ supernatural powers, divination, and so on. This in particular is what hooked me after I had a peripheral vision of my characters ‘disappearing.’

Fantasy is unlimited to a certain extent. There has been some absurd thoughts come to my mind about having flying animals dropping from thin air or mermaids lying on dry land eating fish out of the water. These things could be possible but they have to fit in with the whole plot and to make sense.

Over to you. What do you think about fantasy? How do you percept it and is it something you would love to write about at some point?