The Future 

Hi guys! 

This week I have been reading and re- mastering my writing skill. It’s been said that a writer never stops learning, and that’s true. I love learning new things that I didn’t know before. Even if that something is what I should have known from the start. But, hey. Nobody’s perfect.  

It’s also been a week of personal challenges. 

As some of you may know I have battled with depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember. That battle has seen me fall, lose my sense of self and wander in the dark. But it’s also made me stronger and more determined to overcome it. 

Yesterday I hit another milestone. I walked by myself, went to a coffee shop and ordered a hot chocolate. Okay, so it doesn’t seem like that big a deal and to some it probably isn’t, but I haven’t done that in such a long time. I’ve either gone with my husband who is fabulous  dealing with my illness and he’s ordered for the two of us, or we walk together. 

I can’t explain all of those emotions what I felt, but I was almost certain that I’d back out of going. But I didn’t. 

It was a huge deal to me to be able to do that. And I hope to do it more often. 

I am about to start therapy again soon. Earlier this year I was discharged from Primary Care to Secondary where they could keep more of an eye on me while I explore the issues of my past. And with an assessment for Autism in the pipeline it’s all going on. 

My childhood was very traumatic as were my teenage years. A lot of the stuff that happened was swept under the carpet by family members that didn’t want to remember or talk about what happened to me. There are a lot of issues I have to iron out and put my suffering to bed. 

How I will cope during that process is going to be hard to tell. 

Which is why I must put this blog aside for now and concentrate on overcoming this obstacle that I call recovery.  

It pains me to do so, but I can’t give you my all if I’m not whole myself. 

In the past four years I have loved writing posts about writing and various things and I hope that my ramblings have helped you in someway. 

Soooo…. 

It’s with that I say goodbye for now. 

Hopefully I’ll be back blogging about something insignificant again one day. 

I hope you continue to meet your goals and achieve your dreams. Never stop going for what you want. 

Blaze

With thanks to  Jamie Street for the image via Unsplash.com 

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The First Word – A Journey Into The Unknown

Hi guys! 

I hope that the first week of October has been good for you. 

This week I’d like to talk about my journey into the written word. 

It started when I was thirteen in the third year of secondary school. Secondary is the UK version of High School. This was when I was being re integrated back into the system as I’d been home tutored due to being badly bullied. 

A familiar question writers get asked is where did the inspiration come from to write? 

To this day I’m still trying to figure that one out. 

All I can remember is sitting down at a computer and after exhausting the option to ‘paint’, an application that’s on most Windows PC’S I opened a Microsoft Word Document where my fingers began typing away. 

I felt this incredible buzz that was out of this world. 

Soon, I was spending all the time I could get at school writing. That became my first attempt at writing a novel. 

As most first novels it was a total mess. It didn’t have a theme. It had no real plot line and the characters were hard to read. 

The story was actually a cross over between the movie Bring It On which is a film about cheerleading and the award winning drama Bad Girls about a women’s prison. I was obsessed with the two of them at that age and anyone reading it would be able to tell that. 

I don’t possess a copy of it anymore as it was a part of the school’s system. I did print it out, but I’ve misplaced it somewhere and can’t find it. 

Although it was a total flop it did teach me two things. 

One – it doesn’t matter how you start a novel or piece of writing at the beginning. All that’s important is getting the words down no matter how they come to you. 

Two – to enjoy the creation process. 

So, there you have it. 

Sometimes it’s not about the destination, but enjoying the scenery as you travel. 

Same goes for writing, or any part of life, really. 

Thanks for reading, 

Until next week, 

Blaze

With thanks to Dariusz Sankowski for the image via Unsplash.com. 

A New Month

Hi guys! 

Happy 1st October!

The build up to Halloween begins! 

For that reason, October has to be my favorite month. I’m not a big fan of the days getting shorter or them getting colder. Especially when I have a hard time getting and staying warm as it is. But I do like seeing all of the different coloured leaves scattered on the pavements and scouting around for conkers. 

We are one month away from National Novel Writing Month. Have you started planning yet? Or perhaps if you’re anything like me you’ll spend this month putting together a brief outline to get you through. 

I’m unorganized at the best of times. Even more so with revising my WIP. 

I’m wondering whether to start a new novel for NaNoWriMo or whether to focus on the revision of my current novel. I’m not sure which would be best to do right now. It’s a possibility that I might have to sit this one out. 

Nothing has been decided yet, but no doubt I’ll know one way or the other. 

That’s all from me this week. 

Hope you have had a great week and that you continue to reach your goals. 

Until next time, 

Blaze

With thanks to James Pritchett for the image via Unsplash.com

Progress!!!

Hi guys! 

Hurrah! Some good news at last! 

The progress is tiny, but progress is progress. 

I’ve heard it said that sometimes when you’re struggling to figure something out its best to make it last priority. 

Well, over the last couple of weeks or so I did just that with my revising and on Thursday I had the breakthrough I’d been hoping for. 

I was busy doing housework when an idea struck me. Bam! Just. Like. That. 

What if I was to start with Pandora’s creation and receiving the gifts that the Gods and Goddesses gave her? 

The idea brought back that fizzle that had been missing. 

I took some time to think logically. I know as writers we’re supposed to go with it, but I’d done that so many times and had got lost. Would it be too obvious opening with Pandora and naming the book Pandora’s Kiss? 

The story world itself wouldn’t be the way without her (or Lamia, my minitagonist to be precise), so I guess it’s only right to open with her. 

I’ve started revising, putting it right at the front to see how it comes across and if it would work. 

Hopefully this might be the start of good things to come. 

Can a book title be too obvious? If so, is that ever a bad thing? 

Hope you all have a great week. 

Until next time, 

Blaze

With thanks to Anthony Delanoix  for the image via Unsplash.com 

The Girl With All The Gifts: A Book Review

Hi guys! 

With just under a week to go until the movie hits UK cinemas what better time to talk about the book. 

The Girl With All The Gifts is about a 10-year old girl called Melanie who is kept in a cell and doesn’t think she’s any different than other kids her age. 

She’s not. 

She sits in a classroom and is taught by a different range of teachers, her favourite being Miss Justineau who treats her like a human being instead of a threat. 

Like her classmates she is a zombie, but she can think and has feelings. 

Some of the staff disagree, however. 

One of those is Dr. Caldwell whose job is to remove the brains of the children to find a cure for humanity. Her particular interest is in Melanie. 

The story is full of twists and turns as the base is infiltrated with hungries. They are forced to exist outside where it is dangerous and their only option is to head for Beacon. Question is do they make it out alive and will Dr. Caldwell get Melanie as her prize? 

I’m not going to reveal the ending. That would just be cruel. I personally love this. The relationship between Melanie and Miss Justineau is just heartwarming and adds a tenderness to the story. The mention of Pandora and Greek Myths was also a quick pathway to my interests. 

I cannot wait to see this although I have my doubts that it will live up to the book, but I’ll remain optimistic. 

If you haven’t read it I highly recommend you pick it up right now and read it. 

If you have read it what did you think? 

Let me know in the comments below! 

Until next week, 

Blaze

Writing Playlists: Oath to Order or Order to Chaos

Hi guys! 

Writing Playlists are always a topic of conversation amongst writers. Should you have one? Should you listen to anything while working on your WIP? How do you know what will compliment your genre? 

I can’t answer those questions. If you’re a writer the only person who can is you. Only you will know your preference and everybody likes different things. 

Ever since I started writing thirteen years ago I’ve never been able to write without music playing. I’d listen to whatever was played on the radio whether it be a sad song or 8O’s pop. I have always found it hard to write in silence. This has its downsides because I find myself getting distracted by lyrics or the rhythm of the song. Luckily it only happens on the odd occasion. 

It’s only recently that I’ve put a writing playlist together. I’ll share it with you. 

Within Temptation- And We Run

Moby –                           After

Within Temptation-   Mother Earth

Enya –                               Wild Child 

Evanescence-                 Hello

Within Temptation-     Shot In The Dark

Enya-                          Return to Innocence

Enya-                           The Cults

Within Temptation-   Faster

Within Temptation-    Our Farewell

We Are The Fallen-       I Am Only One 

These are just some of what I like to listen to while writing. There’s more to add at a later date which is always fun to do. 

As Pandora’s Kiss is a Dystopian Fantasy I find myself being drawn to gothic/alternative metal to write to the most. Q

I hope you enjoyed reading my playlist. 

Until next week, 

Blaze

With thanks to Álvaro Serrano for the image via Unsplash.com 

Writing Update. 


Hi guys! 

I hope you’ve all had a good week. Mine hasn’t been eventful, so I’ve been able to work on re- defining my outline for Pandora’s Kiss. 

I’m tying up a few loose ends before I make any concrete notes. 

I have mixed feelings about how it will all turn out. Feelings that I’ve not experienced in all the years I’ve been writing. Maybe it’s a lack of self-confidence or belief, I don’t know. I have no choice but to believe that this draft will be ‘the one.’ The other alternative is to give up on the story that’s so vivid in my head and I can’t do that. 

They say that if you can quit being a writer than quit, but if you can’t then that makes you a writer. 

It’s that easy and that hard. 

While I am rebuilding the foundations to Pandora’s Kiss I’m also collecting dribs and drabs of research  for the novel I’m writing for NaNoWriMo. 

 The idea is similar to that of my WIP, so I’m exploring options on how I can make it different. 

Wish me luck! 

That’s all I can say for this week. 

I’m always open for suggestions, so if there’s anything you’d like covered just shout out in the comments below. 

Hope you all have a good week! 

Until next time, 

Blaze

With thanks to Helloquence for the image via Unsplash.com