I’ve been a bit of a busy bee just lately, hence my absence of late.
Last week I celebrated my 24th birthday. I spent it with my lovely Nanna and my two gorgeous siblings, Owen who is seven and Laura who is six. It’s no secret that I spent most of the day trying to deter them from messing around in public toilets and hogging the stalls. Little buggers! 😛
Thank heavens it’s nearly term time!
Putting all that to one side though I finally managed to finish Lady of the Kryptonites which is sat in the cupboard, cooped up in a folder for viewing at a later date. I am currently looking for reviewers to give feedback. If you are interested in reading a YA fantasy novel then feel free to volunteer your services 🙂
As for today though, I am off out in the sunshine to work on the sequel.
Hope you enjoyed the update,
Sorry for my absence these past couple of days. It’s been really, really tough but hopefully I’m turning a corner now.
In the past week I’ve had non stop panic attacks and nightmares and hallucinations. The hallucinating has come as a bit of a shock to the system to be a honest because thr last time I had dealings with those was when I was seven/ eight years old during and after being physically abused.
The first panic attack that occurred last week was just to do with me having a laptop on my desk and having a monitor placed behind it (it sounds so silly, even my partner thought so) but to me it felt like I was drowning. Some people might think that panic attacks only happen in public places, although this can be the case panic attacks can happen with almost any situation. That’s what makes mental health so difficult for people to understand.
I don’t think this is a case of people being ignorant however. It is simply a case of being human; we fear what is not known to us. We are programmed to stay clear from things that make as feel uncomfortable. We learn what we like to eat and what we don’t like, what feels safe and what doesn’t etc, from when we are babies and we carry it with us throughout our lives.
The sad truth of it is, is that people like me with mental health issues is that isolation tends to be a huge factor, and the more a person with issues such as depression, anxiety etc, the more unworthy and hopeless a person feels.
This is a huge problem which urgently needs resolving fast. The government need to be organising group activities for people with mental health issues to enable them to feel good and increase their social life.
Most important of all, we need to stop keeping it hidden and start talking about it a lot more than we are. That way we can drop the stigma against mental health. Remember, just because a person is mentally ill, it doesn’t class them any less as a person.
Hope you enjoyed reading.
Ah, music. What would life be like without it?
I wouldn’t want to imagine a world where music doesn’t exist. However, this is the situation that my characters face in LOTK.
If I was to live in Episkopos, god only knows that I wouldn’t survive a day if I was to adjust without the sweet, soft thumping of a tune or a gentle serenade to unwind.
Music is often known to be the release we need to kick back and have a good time for those who are socialites but for people who are creatively abled music can be a source of inspiration.
When I first began writing LOTK I listened to a lot of soppy, uninspiring pop and r&b. It was no surprise really that the first draft turned out to be flat and lifeless.
And as I began to rip my story apart I began to be drawn to heavy metal, rock and roll and even classical which came as a bolt out of the blue, especially as I’m not a classical type of listener.
I’m pleased to say that my love of music and my alternative tastes have helped tremendously in my writing and is vigourously used as motivation on days when I just don’t have any.
Music, to me is my muse.
What is yours? What do you listen to or do to get the ol’ metre running?
Looking forward to hearing your ideas.
I hope you’ve enjoyed reading.